God knows what we need


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I wanted to get a post up over the weekend while Josh was away on the Men’s Retreat but, well…Josh was away on the Men’s Retreat, so of course…

Charlotte got a nasty cold

Our heat temporarily malfunctioned (in the middle of an uncharacteristically cold March night in Florida)

I took on a bunch of random household projects, which I always do when Josh is gone

Oh, and the internet stopped working. So even if I had found the time, I wouldn’t have been able to write!

I tried to fix it (by which I mean that I unplugged the router, plugged it back in and then gave up when that didn’t work), and then went back to my random projects.

I don’t know what it is about Josh being gone that makes me feel like I need to suddenly go through and organize all of our old files or remove the shower doors in the upstairs bathroom. No, really, that’s what I did. See?

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I’m not much of a planner. I think things like “I’m bored. I think I’ll go remove the shower doors.” And then I go do it, without even changing out of my purple fuzzy slippers or removing the toys from the bathtub. Josh isn’t really either. I mean, we plan our lives as much as responsible adults need to in order to function (she said trying to convince herself), but we tend to just do things without a lot of deliberation.

So over the years as we’ve talked about adoption there was this part of me that thought, “There is so much research to do, so many decisions to make, and I’m afraid that it’s going to keep us from ever doing this.”

Do we use an agency or adopt independently? Do we adopt domestically or internationally? If internationally, what country? Girl or boy? What age? When do we adopt?

God knows what we need.

Within a matter of days:

Independent adoption
Girl or boy? How about both
2 and 4

I’m not saying all of those questions aren’t important. They are. And for some, most actually, the process of answering those questions is a long one. But, God answered those questions very quickly for us and we both believe it was a kindness on His part.

We had been talking about adoption again, considering the right time for it, when Josh got a call that put us on the fast track toward it, although we didn’t know that at the time.  A couple in our church with a heart for adoption made us an offer we couldn’t refuse.  She was going to Uganda in three weeks (three?!), for one day (one day?!) and wanted to know if I’d like to go with. We would stay one night, talk to Rashid (who runs an orphange) and visit that orphanage. Then we’d fly back. Crazy right?

For us that meant me leaving the Thursday before Josh had to preach, and getting back just hours after he’d already left for a conference. I’d travel for 4 days straight and then be alone with the girls while jet-lagged and exhausted, and Josh and I wouldn’t get to see each other for a week. Sounded kinda insane to me, yet we said yes almost immediately. Which is good because then I didn’t have time to talk myself out of it.

Going into the trip I thought a lot of things, but I didn’t think it would lead to adoption. At least not right away. Josh and I both saw this as an opportunity to create connections for our church in Uganda and open the door for many people to consider adopting there. We still pray that would be true! But we had only ever talked about adopting a baby, and I knew for a fact that all the kids at this orphanage were over 2 years old. So I had pretty much dismissed the possibility of our adopting, though I still prayed “Lord if you want us to adopt, show us.”

Oh how small my faith is. How big His plans are.

Obviously He did want us to adopt, and did show us, but I’ll save the story of my trip for my next post.


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  1. Katie Ol

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